y things r in tis way..... y u all think i dun understand everything... got listen to me say be4 mah.... i gone through things... things so hurting... i juz hope to put them aside.... wouldn't tok abt... it giving it a chance to and hope it dun happen again... y would u all feel i dun feel as worse as how u all feel now... now all i can do is torturing myself... physically.... juz brutally torture... things shldn't be the way they r now... hope so much things go better... do as i promise telling everything..... but end up making things worse.... so crappy hate myself making someone's day worse... i totally feel worse den ever.... things shldn't be tis way.... feel so useless... my always wanted love... dreams... y quarrel.... y not having luving each other more.... y letting all this make us unhappy.... i didn't wan tis to happen... i noe it hurts... i hav been back stab be4.... things wasn't close wif my first... i feel so much worse den anything.. y couldn't anyone get it.... so hope all tis wouldn't even make a single step into us.... wun even giv a damn... cuz we hav each other... cuz we luv each other... cuz we need eah other... cuz we care and concern abt each other... cuz we dun hide anything from each other... cuz we trust and believe each other... rite?? building a stronger relationship is the thing we nid to noe.... not noe to angry, feel hurt, sad, worried... love road dwn is a couple walking it together... any obstacles will be blocking our road... it shldn't be a prob for us taking the obstacles away together easily, not letting it make us walk seperate ways.. i am not going to let any obstacles make us walk seperate ways... but i couldn't do it alone... i nid u to be wif me through all tis.... i nid u to understand.... not making any day as the saddest or worst.... but instead the happiest, exciting, wonderful day.... get wat i mean... hatred isn't wif u but letting it be wif u make ppl around u suffer... u aren't alone.... u noe it.... kk end~ =[ =(
10:10 PM -LIFE-
Friday, September 07, 2007
hey peeps... here to post again.... haiz tis holiday keep staying at home the whole day.... oni like thur den get to go out.... mostly i'm the one alone at home... nth to do... thur go out.... den drink coffee at coffee bean wif wx.... specially choose a veh cold spot to sit.... den we spent a time there chatting.... after that we went walking around jp.... duno wat to do... den we went arcade play till crazy... after that decided to go to west mall... we ate a veh nice ice cream.... start walking all abt.... den take bus go jp there the library... we both borrow two same book... and somehow also saw many book titles veh cute.... kinda going crazy.... den today fri.... plan go out wif him.... at my hse dwnstairs duno wher to go... den decided to go bukit batok after a while of thinking.... while waiting for the bus his mum called... knowing my time wif him was gonna be short.... unable to do anything.... thinking me all alone juz makes me feel kinda lonely.... i now alrdy unable to fill the emptiness in my heart.... so empty... juz wan to get wat i always wanted and dream of.... not gonna elab on tat.... dun think anyone will noe... not gonne toking abt the veh cute guy at the mrt station... i folo him to bukit panjang.... den go seperate ways at a point... say gdbye to one another... me alone wandering around the neighbourhood.... i keep toking to myself.... juz keep toking... den end up walking in bukit panjang plaza.... strolling... hu noes be4 i go out and walk round the neighbourhood again.... i saw him... so surprise.... but it juz last less than a minute..... den again say gd bye.... after hours of walking i decided to go home at last.... took 180 to jp and bought bubblle tea... maybe i shld walk around alone again next time.... alone 4eva??? hope not.....
4:42 PM -LIFE-
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Name: Samantha
Age: 16
School: BLGPS->JSS
Birthday: 17 April
