ok early in the morning...
well i think not early at all...
brush my teeth and den ask my sis to wake up!!!
she ask me one...
not my fault..
on the com as i dun think i will be able to use it
when i staying at my nanny hse...
but can contact me by calling me or sms my hp..
so i on9..
check my blog..
post..
check my friendster..
go others blog..
well juz make sure i go do all this stuffs be4
unable to use the com for days...
duno wat to say now...
so weird..
strange..
well strange thing is i get cut when i was sleeping..
i duno how i get it...
juz a cut on my left thumb...
found out not long ago...
i dun even hav anything sharp near me...
strange rite...
haiz...
i am thinking wat hav i do wrong...
i duno..
nowadays my mind is like flooding
wif millions of thots..
well trying to get over it...
dun wan those thots make me unhappy..
or shld i say look unhappy..
i duno...
plz someone tell me wat to do..
nvm i think its betta the way i solve it myself..
sry...
juz trying to wake myself up
from my world...
ok nid to pack up things for staying
my nanny hse...
cya guys next post
buai buai...
10:28 AM
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ytd slept around 3a.m. plus....
today 8 a.m. plus wake up...
5hrs of sleeping....
wander how i survive hahas...
den on9 no one...
sianz...
nth to do..
later still nid to bring my sis to sch...
den i will all alone at home...
no one to tok to...
haiz..
tok to myself also wrong...
later ppl think i crazy die liaoz...
i also duno find who to chat over the phone....
wx MIA....
cnnt find her lor...
wander her prob solve leh mah..
sianz...
duno how to help her also..
eh how come tok until wx dwn there hahas..
okok
so bored...
will be gg to my nanny hse and stay for a few days now and den...
den i duno can use the com there anot...
also not mine...
hw haven finish...
how...
still got cca camp on 19th and 20th of june...
lucky dun nid to stay overnite...
i dun wan to stay overnite...
i not quite happy wif my cca...
but got cca points take also gd la...
can anyone tell me wat to do...
suddenly i feel so lost..
cnnt find my way to anywher...
somehow come to think of it..
i really nid help on sumthing but
i duno wat...
haiz...
post so much i think also no one read la...
hehe..
sry if really any of u read...
ok stopping here...
will post asap...
buai buai...
9:23 AM
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hey ppl...
hows holiday..
i noe it oni has been a week...
wat can i say...
today isn't gd...
afternoon i was reading a book
and den halfway got a terrible headache...
i cnnt even walk properly....
cnnt really concentrate when i am doing sum stuff...
like when sms him took quite long to reply bah at first...
also dun dare tell him...
den later my mum realise den help apply medical oil...
i den feel much betta...
but now and den will still headache....
haiz..
i wander wat to do the nxt few weeks...
i dun even noe how to do my hw liaoz...
for a few la..
like lit, d&t...
still remember on thur go cut my hair...
den go quite far or it is far...
the aunt who help me cut my hair ask me a few qns abt me and my sis...
still say thot i and my sis r twins...
unbelieveable...
den also say i pretty...
i was shock...
and she added wan to intro her son to me or intro me to her son...
either way bah...
den i was even more shocked...
den my mum say still young still young....
tat was so close....
ok stop here...
cya guys nxt time..
buai buai...
6:55 PM
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haiz....
unable to hav gd sleep ytd nite....
things aren't the way they gg to be...
i duno...
i'm so confuse...
i'm living in fear...
is this wat she wants??
i dun mind her attacking me...
i juz dun wan her touch anyone i care for...
especially him...
i cnnt afford to lose anyone...
not a single one...
am i to put down my guards dwn as wat wx say...
if tis works i will...
now to me being strong...
i juz feel weaker...
sooner or later i will fall...
but i nid to hold on...
k not gg to carry on with this...
post next time
bye bye...
still in darkness...
12:25 PM
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