hey peeps...
sry for those cnnt read the chi characters of my previous post....
haiz... things aren't they i hope it will be...
my love life, i think it's stable...
or i hope closer and stronger....
but no one noes wat is goin on in my family...
i noe me been being emo...
also getting high, smiling a lot...
i look strong outside but weak inside...
but things juz didn't seem to be the way it is last time...
now... my absence in the family doesn't matter...
my parents wun giv a damn to find me....
am i home or not, no difference..
but if its my sis hu is lost....
they would giv all their best find her,
know her whereabouts...
would feel sad..
would feel the eager to held my sis back into their arms...
i dun get all tis if i'm the one lost....
the attention i nid... haiz...
at least ur parents scold u, dun allow u do this do that,
say no to sum stuffs, etc....
at least they pay attention to u,
care abt u so dun allow doin things,
say no to things they worry will hurt u....
i dun get all tis now...
wher i stay no longer my home...
i get the blame for everything, even its my sis wrong anot,
its still my fault...
i will always leave a scar in them
for the very small things i hav done and ignore me...
wat i hav done, hav nv been appreciated by them...
i'm nv better than my sis for everything....
they would smile back to my sis no matter she smiles at them or not...
but when i smile at them they wun even giv a damn to smile back....
i sincerely apologize for the faults i made..
but they still wun forgive me.....
i hav been toturing myself..
physically... juz toturing..
feel great... i will juz toture myself...
no one cares...
i would cry and no one noes....
i will always walk at the back of them....
things are worst....
juz worst....
i no longer feel as a part of this family....
no longer feel the love everyone will receive from their parents....
no longer feel this is home,
where i will feel the warmth and being love and care...
i want to move out of wher i am staying now...
i wan to move out.....
really....
out of this place....
plz someone help me....
plz...
i reall nid someone now...
really nid someone close to me...
really nid tat person by my side....
i'm in a lost...
juz so lost.....
ending here... thx for reading... bb.... =(
6:08 PM
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